Could i possibly bipolar ?

bipolar disorder is hereditary in my family and for years i guess i was trying to deny it but now my marriage and family are at stake if i dont get some help. one minute im so overjoyed i cant stand my self. then the next i wanna cry my eyes out and i blame my husband for everythinng. but hes wonderful to me he treats me like a princess but im constantly ruining everything i cant seem to stop crying and the littlist things set me off if its not anger its crying if its not crying im spaced out HELP!! i dont want to do this anymore but i dont want a doctor to put me on so many drugs im comatose